MARIAM ALAYANDE

Mother Mother!! The brittle unfamiliar voice called out, Startled from my sleep, I flew out of my bed to switch on the lights, Surprisingly,the room was emptily filled, Fully immersed with a strange presence, The voice was right there, Too scared to step out of the room, Fear gripped every single bit of me, My hands slid slowly to my belly, It looked normal but it didn't feel that way, Life was in me, That whose existence I plan to erase, Numbness- was not enough a word, As every variety of emotion in me collided, I wanted to cry so bad but I couldn't find tears, The devil in me was no longer a toddler but an adult, I managed to make it to my bed, Wishing upon the stars that all of this was a nightmare, Deep down my conscience fought, A lost battle for my innocence, As I clung to a tiny atom of hope, I knew what was at the other side of the line, For if I break the first seal, It's a one way trip to Hell. THANKS A LOT FOR READING. PLEASE DO ...

All I want right now is to go back to the first day we met, the first time we spoke, the first time we held hands, the first time we kissed... Everything comes first with this ineffable feeling and even a clear conscience, but right now I have to watch her yell endlessly recounting all my faults. She wasn't always this crazy, I also never dared tell her she’d gotten crazier but I guess as you get more familiar with people, you get to realize traits in them you never observed initially. "I’m sorry dear, please forgive me" I reiterated for the 50th time that night. In response, she cleared her throat, pushed me to the side, grabbed her handbag from the dressing table, took a rain check on her make-up and tried to adjust perfectly into her Kardashian dress.. With all that drama, I just knew whatever was coming out next was going to be a bomb. "I’m tired of putting up with all of your crap George, I regret ever meeting you, you cheat on me and yo...

Tears filled my eyes as I hit the floor for the 5th time. I had lost my voice completely. Tried to voice out in distress but nothing came out anymore. She tied my hands backwards as she rained more abusive words like "you this useless bastard, I will kill you today". She went in, so I tried to untie myself. This wasn’t her first time but my body was weak. I had no idea what to do, for every single effort I made my body gave out. Here she was again as she tied my legs and gagged me. Pulling out a blade with a bowl of hot pepper, she first went for my feet as she slashed my skin bit by bit. Pain doesn't even begin to describe how I felt, she went on and on making incisions all around, concurrently with hot pepper. Slowly, my heart gave in. The pain didn’t fade away but in no time nothing mattered anymore. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ ‘How is she doing doctor?’ a familiar masculine voice asked.. ‘She will be fine, she should regain consciousness any m...

Thwart me from whispering those 3 words back, I begged every cell to nerve to bone to organ in me, Avert me from this catastrophe I prayed, I could have sworn even the weather wanted to lead me astray as he pulled me for a walk just after the heavy rain, I barely could stop the fresh scent of air from tampering with my senses, Neither could I help but appreciate the beauty and calmness of nature, My hand didn’t fit into his but he held on like it did, He looked at me like I was edible but the kind of inedible edible, One to only treasure not just in your leisure, I knew the difference, I felt the rift, I understood I couldn’t call this Love, For when I looked at him, my heart didn’t split out of its chambers or skip an output, He squeezed my hand again as I faked a smile, I begged silently ‘Don’t break me’, He halted and turned sharply, eyes interlocked with one another, His filled with so much thirst as he leaned in for my lips, Only for it to land on my cheek as...

Hanging up reluctantly after been turned down for like the 12th time. Usually I don’t push too far but this lady has been giving me mixed signals all through. ‘Let me think about this properly’ Yinka said as he relaxed in his office chair. She wasn’t just like every business minded lady I have ever met, she was different. She was well driven by passion. I met Ifunaya at a fashion show, she did show her line that evening and I couldn’t hesitate to tell her how amazing her designs were. Truthfully, I did this with a plain mind, not having any hidden agenda and perhaps at this point I still had an ex drama to deal with. That day Ifunaya and I did exchange phone numbers which I would say was a pretty normal thing to do. Weeks passed by before I got a phone call from Ifunaya. I did get a lot of those from her and in no time I could say we became friends. We did try to meet up for drinks or just hangout but her schedule was too tight for that. ...

Dressed up in my bodycon off shoulder black dress, red lips and braids held up. Even the bright lights were shy of my beauty. He sat right across the table in his blue suit and dark blue stripped tie. This was the most attractive I had seen him, his calmness as he glanced through the menu and licked his lips unconsciously. What can’t you do with a gentleman with an awesome fashion sense? – Everything my dear. I tried my best not to blush but you know sometimes even you betrays you.Then I remember he isn’t even mine to admire. My lover, John who I’m too single to think of dating still mattered. ‘Tracy!’ he called as I snapped out my deep thought and smiled ‘Are you okay?’ Edward asked as he reached out for my right hand across the table as I forced a non blushing smile and nodded. The waiter took our orders and in no time the food was in and out. He came over to my side as he put his arm over my shoulder and we just talked about random things as we gulped down glasses of ...

This isn’t a letter, Or a cipher to decipher, These are words put together, By most of your actions, How you see yourself, I dare not say, For perfection is all you see of yourself, Imperfect – others are to you, Change-isn’t a word you wanna hear, For you shatter me over and over, And paint me with my mistakes, Over and over, I have tried, Clinging to this massive ice, Hoping you did see, But you are too numb to even feel, For you are deeply lost, To this miserable perfect world of yours, I want you, More than you can ever understand, I want more, But each more I lean for, Decreases my cardiac output, Maybe one day, When those eyes of yours, Open in an imperfect state, You did see it all, It did be too late, For I did be far gone, Far far beyond reach, See see see lover, My patience is dying, But you care more about proving, And here we go again, Mr Perfect knows it all, But I am done, And this is where I leave you. THANKS FOR READING. PLEA...

As I drove down the highway in my Bmw X6. All I could hear was his words, his harsh words ‘ You are useless, You disgust me,you are an apology to feminism,I never loved you and never will, You are good for nothing, Have you ever wondered why your mum left you at a stranger’s door?’ I know my childhood record isn't fancy, but when you have given someone everything and they turn everything against you. I could not help as the lakes of tears kept flowing and as I hit the steering and throttle with full rage. It felt like my heart divided into two and my blood could not even circulate. The tears were clouding my vision but I kept driving and the words rang over and over and the tears kept on. I closed my eyes for a couple of seconds and I opened it, I saw it, I saw the junction, I saw the tanker, I hit the brakes but it was too late as I lost all respect for gravity and that was it. The end. I jumped right out of the car and I could not believe I was alive and ...

‘You can’t understand if you don’t have a sister’. Every single moment, This line is uttered at thou, I back down for a second, Drooping in my heart break, No hard feelings, Towards whoever uttered that, But, Do I even know? I wouldn’t say that, At least not exactly, But I once had sisters, One before I was born, And the other when I was much younger, Young enough to understand the joy, Of having another playmate around, Of having one more chuckle in the house, Of one more distinct voice, Of one extra presence. But you still don’t understand, Do you? You walk up again and say ‘No no Mariam , you can’t get it,only we with sisters do', Another bullet, Straight through my heart, For every Mid April, It’s like reenacting, I see that black cloud again, And I still can't help but wonder 'If'. Do you know how it’s like? Waiting to have that one, That one that made Mother send you on countless errands, Some you never came back from ful...

This is the truth and you may choose to believe or not. I have never being a cheat neither have I ever aspired to look at another in ways I only looked at my lover. I do throw tantrums at any cheat that crosses my path. Little did I know my turn was just around the corner. I had met him before, about two years ago to be precised. (You know all those kind of guys you run into when your African parent happens to be with you, all those paroles that end even before they started.) Crossing his path again was quite surprising, he hardly even recognized me but what can I say? You can’t stand a lady like me approaching you without your head exploding in admire. His smile was everything, his height could make you stumble and want to hug him forever, his complexion was moderate and his Lips made me wonder, for they were so beautifully graced and well coated in pink. Time went by gracefully, and we kept talking. I always remembered that he struck me as a player but as you know, int...

I shook her gently once more, As I watched her hazel eyes bedazzle, For she clung to my blue scarf, Like it was life itself, Oh! I shook her lifeless body once more, As tears rolled in balls down my cheek, As her mother drooped and screamed miserably, I couldn't help but feel guilty, If only I had walked in earlier, If only someone else had bothered to care, A little angel would not be lifeless, A mother would not have had to suffer such fate, Oh my !!! She screamed her lungs out as she rambled, As she remembered all those that never gave, How she wished so much for a change, For the world and the souls in it, For her pain, and others that have been in her shoes, Is immeasurable, You,you,you, You could have stopped that, If only you knew, If only you responded to the call, This would have been a different story. WRITTEN BY; MARIAM ALAYANDE [IG;@Lady_temi} THANKS A LOT FOR READING, PLEASE DO NOT FORGET TO SHARE AND LEAVE COMMENTS.

Tears filled my eyes as I took another look at her ,as I held her tightly and for a second I thought she did breathe but I was wrong it was her lifeless body I hung on to at the altar,yes I lost my soul mate at the altar. She never did hurt a fly and why this happened I couldn’t even wrap my head around this situation for it was so hard to believe. I tried blinking a couple of times in hope that She would wake but she didn’t, she was gone. Sade took her life,my ex girlfriend took her life.I don’t blame her , I only blame the cruelness in me for this has only made me lost my one and only. I met Sade at a point in her life where she did give up on love and at a point in my life when playing was a priority. (SADE) Every single time I close my eyes, I remember that day. How that gorgeous, polish looking young man walked into the library and our eyes met and I could have sworn it was love at first sight. We ended up talking and exchanged numbers before I left the library...

Those lingering of your fingers, The movement of your feet, The peace you feel in your heart, The over functioning of all your synapses, The one which triggers these all, The one who takes away all that bad energy, That one thing that makes you smile, The one we all are used to, The series of all, That which is different for us all, That which gives more life than life itself, That which reaches deep beneath your very soul, That which grabs every vein of yours, That which poisons your bloodstream, That which might be bad or good, That which gives an almost unexplainable feeling, We all are addicted, Every addiction differs, What’s yours? WRITTEN BY; MARIAM ALAYANDE [IG;@Lady_temi} THANKS A LOT FOR READING, PLEASE DO NOT FORGET TO SHARE AND LEAVE COMMENTS.